I’m sorry you’re facing such difficult circumstances at such a young age. I really want to commend you for searching for all possible resources to bolster your strength and help you maintain your health and resilience for as long as possible. You sound like you have an amazing attitude and impressive resilience.
We do have guided imagery for pain – my Ease Pain imagery might be good (since you responded well to my work in the past), and also we have some excellent imagery by Marty Rossman – Pain Relief as well as a very highly-rated meditation audio by KRS Edstrom called Defeat Pain. In addition, Michael Reed Gach has a guided acupressure/gentle yoga stretch audio program for back pain, and that may come in handy as well. It’s called Release Back Pain.
In addition, I see you live in Northeast Ohio. There’s a gifted osteopathic doc in Parma who may have additional ideas for you. I haven’t seen her since she moved to the West Side, but I knew her to be very skillful and knowledgeable about a lot of CAM therapies, supplements and energy medicine as well as traditional allopathic medicine, and she may be able to offer you some added consultation for this challenging situation. Her name is Vivian Bochenek and you can find her listing here.
I do hope some of this helps!
All best wishes,