I grew up in the deep South, in churches that taught us that we carried the sins of our ancestors, who had sinned against God, and so God put a curse on the family, and we would all keep dying until God was over his anger.
I can't express the damage this did to a child (me) who was already struggling with the overwhelming health crises and multiple losses in her family.
I grew up and eventually realized intellectually that the idea of an angry God who punishes people for ‘the sins of the fathers’ was nonsense, but it was too late. Those teachings took hold deep in my subconscious, where my analytic brain didn’t go. Those early ideas stuck, and framed my outlook.
I got the PTSD guided imagery from the leader of a weekly support group I attend. I went to bed and started listening to it. I was expecting nothing, but I promised him I would give it a try. I didn’t make it to a full minute before tears were slipping out of my eyes & rolling down my face. Soon I was just crying.
It happens every time, but I feel lighter afterwards, not so weighed down with pain. I don't feel so tired. In fact, I am just starting to realize how weary I have been. I don’t know how far this meditation can take me in my healing, but I can say that I love this meditation, find it very calming, reassuring & soothing. I don’t think I’ll ever get tired of the journey through my broken heart and down into my purest essential self. I just may listen to it every night for the rest of my life ”
- Annette W. from Virginia
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